Moment of Clarity…
I need to learn to let go. I need to rid of my memories, good and bad, and move on. Memories make me happy, good and bad, but not when the person isn’t with me today. There might have been ups and downs between us but we had great laughs, nights where we did nothing but bullshit, and days that we would fight. There is still an emptyness in the pit of my stomach and heart because your presence isn’t here…. Because you are not here. I can’t shake this feeling off. DO YOU KNOW THE PAIN WE ALL ENDURED FOR WHAT YOU DID? But we can’t imagine the feeling you had when you did it….. I miss you. I fucking miss you. I didn’t tattoo your name on me for fun. I can’t bear the thought of seeing you the way you are… It kills me and I can’t face my “truth”. You changed our lives over night…. Emotionally…… Why?
It’s been a year……… And I still can’t over it. The pain is just easier… but I’ll never be over it.
I love you Big Bro.
